Prejudicial Thinkings - Another Kind of Yoke
"That's the price I pay for loving you the way that I do." (Billy Bragg)
There was a time when I used to write everything that came to my mind to paper. I have a bad habit of telling people everything. I keep babbling until they turn away bored. So, I start colouring my stories to make them more interesting, so people don't turn away. That works for a little while and then they start picking up on the colouring and get bored again and turn away. Worst, if I try to stick to the plain old truth, they think I am exaggerating as I usually do, and so I can't get my point of view across. That in turn frustrates me, so I scream out by telling people everything. A vicious circle. I am aware of it. I know I should change. Funny enough I've had many chances in my life to start fresh. I moved a few times, changed jobs, gotten into a new environment and had all the intention to keep things straight. Somehow, that never worked and I find myself in that circle again with no escape.
So, I began to confide in paper, and later in blogs. This found me many friends and readers on other sites that shall remain nameless. I found love, too, again, and again, and again and finally - I hope - forever. Again.
I'm not really sure where this is supposed to go. This blog, this entry. In the end, I think, this is the first place I have had in years where I can write about myself, coloured or straight, without any prejudice other than my own.
repertoire (2007-08-04)
yes, be yourself. the egg that you are. for that is the best egg, cracked or not.
scribbles (2007-08-03)
You crack me up! I am adding you to my friends list.
Barnabus (2007-07-31)
We all know you're a good egg....just slightly cracked.....like the rest of us!!! :)
Barnabus (2007-07-31)
It's great that at least here people can get a 'hearing'! Plus if anyone turns away bored...at least it's not done in your face...but I don't think they do, or they would simply quit reading your posts!! and we dont!!!!
Hardcore_Pyro (2007-07-31)
I'm glad that you found a home here in the land of ShoutPost. I hope that this place gives you the power to break free of your circles. My wife loves to sing a little catch phrase when I'm driving....it seems that I almost always miss a turn and she would break out in song with........... "Kenny go round in circles" (Repeat)
Bishop\'s Fantasy? (2007-07-31)
I can't believe there's another person out there in the world who's familiar with Billy Bragg. I was listening to him on the way to class last night.
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